What to say.

Polluted mind, must be just mine

Trying to escape or read between the Lines

That everybody suffers In their own way

Who am I to say that its any different

Dear God I can no longer hear you

Must be my fault for stumbling and not seeing you

For thinking that your not there while I suffer

When i beg you while drowning in my own tears

Please I'm loosing it, I can not take this pain

Or please, let me forget

I can only say I remember everything

My pain, my mother's and sister's pain

As they see me laying there

I know their praying

but do you listen?

I do not want to say you didn't

But this pain brought no cleansing

Only hallucinations, Of horrible things

And to this day, they still haunting me

Killing my dreams and the ability to sleep

God, my spirit was screaming for you

Since my voice was un existent

My chest open, I feel I'm broken

And my soul has escaped from me.

I hate to pretend but if I'm at my end

Could you give me real peace

For every one thinks that I feel better

When in reality I have never felt so afraid

So broken and without strength

I have no fight left in me

A cloud hovering with all my broken dreams

I'm not ready to quit

But I am weary

I wish I knew the right words

But at this time I don't know just what to say.